I panic.

It's something I've fought hard to control. I'm usually pretty even tempered, and relatively normal, but I do get overwhelmed when it comes to completing that impossible, mountainous, ever growing to do list that lives in my head. I complain that once everything is done, its time to do them all over again.

I stress about having enough time, and I rush through things. This is basically counter-productive. All it really does is make me more disorganised and disoriented than when I started the task in the first place.

Occasionally, especially when I find the time to meditate, I have brief moments of effectiveness. These seem to occur when I slow down and work at a pace which is comfortable for me. So often in life we go about our day at someone elses speed, especially when it comes to work. I, myself, am guilty of trying to force others to move at my speed. My boyfriend never does anything in a hurry. I give him crap for it, and often try to hurry him up. I make him feel like it is a shortcoming.

I really shouldn't do that. His ability to constantly move at a speed that is comfortable for him is a gift. A gift I wish I had. He does things precisely and accurately, and most importantly, with minimal stress. His job is stressful enough... why give himself more?

There are so many things in life that we have no control over. So many inescapable deadlines that we have to adhere to. Adding extra stress to my life of my own volition seems to be something really stupid. But its something that I do, everyday.

I'm not sitting here telling eveyone to blow off their responsibilities and coast through life. We all have people (or animals) that rely on us to help them through their lives, its not just all about us. But maybe we'd all be more effective if we moved at a comfortable, slower pace. Taking in life and all its beauty, its complexities.

If you take the time to really think about and understand your task at hand, I can almost guarantee you that you'll do a better job.

The great Ferris Bueller once said:

"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."

I hope so too, Edgeworth. Not really, but anyway...

It feels like FURRREVAH since I finished Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney, aka "I'm no Phoenix but you'll play the game anyway because Phoenix keeps poppin in" and now finally I have been able to pre-order Ace Attorney Investgations, translated into English from Play-Asia

Also worth mentioning, it's SO damn cheap. New DS games retail around the $69.95 AUD mark over here (some places are still asking that much for Phoenix) and after shipping and the $ conversion, AAI is going to set me back a mere $40 bucks or so.

Excuse me sir, I'll take ten.

Capcom will be showing off Investigations at San Diego Comic Con this year, at their panel on July 23rd, and Play Asia lists the release date as January 2010 however some UK games sites have shipping dates as early as November this year. I'll bet it will be out before Christmas.

Heaps of recurring characters too, although some not in the capacity one might hope for.

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Its been about five years since my boyfriend showed me this clip, and I still can't watch it without turning into a bawling, blubbering mess. It's haunting, sad and simply amazing. Trent Reznor may have written the song, but Mr Cash made it his own.

RIP Johnny.

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Holy crap Reclaim. Where the frog have you been all my life?

I'm a relative Nubar virgin, but I must say I love the quality of this polish, and pretty much every other Nubar I've got my hands on in the last few months. (I have 9 of em). The "Going Green" collection was exceptionally high quality and the pigmentation in these polishes is something that other polish companies should aspire to.

Why don't I own more Nubars?

I think I need to rectify this error ASAP.

I swatched the rest of the Going Green collection too. I think Earth might be my favourite, with Reclaim a close second. Who am I kidding? I love them all. Wildlife was a big surprise for me. I didn't think it would be my thing, but I love it just as much as the rest of them.

The Going Green Collection can be purchased from ByNubar.com or if you're outside the US, Sparkling Nails on eBay.

My brain has a talent for remembering things that are useless and forgetting important stuff. I remember many years ago, my sister telling me about her work uniform at the pharmacy she worked for. She had been given a new jacket, but the jacket had no lapels because her superiors felt that lapels made a person seem unapproachable. She thought this was absurd, and quite frankly so do I - and I often wonder why I remembered it at all.

Its amazing how many of us go through our days wearing our own figuratiive "lapels". A scowl on your face. A look of being a in a hurry. Hands in pockets. Anger or indifference makes us unnaproachable. It's that inpenetrable wall that the rest of the world can't break through. No one is going to ask you a question if you look like you'll snap at them. No one will want to talk to you if you look like you're in a hurry. It's a dangerous defense mechanism that only really affects one person. You.

I started to notice that when I went out in public, especially on my own, I would plaster a scowl on my face and make myself unnaproachable. And to be honest, I really don't know why I was doing that. The only purpose it serves is to dampen my own mood and make me more likely to be irritated by the people around me.

So now, I'm trying my hardest to reverse the habit I have fallen into. When I walk across the road to get lunch at work, I try and remind myself that I am happy. I smile at people I don't know as I pass them. If someone asks me for the time, I'll gladly tell them.

A wonderful lady I know taught me to never underestimate the power of being kind to someone you don't know. Kindness without motive for personal gain is the best kind that there is. Well, you still gain something out of it. That warm feeling you get knowing that you have done something nice.

Emotions are highly contagious. When someone cuts you off on the motorway because they are in a bad mood, that mood transfers to you. If a shop clerk is having a bad day and is rude to you, chances are you'll catch that mood and be rude to the next person you encounter. But the good news is it isn't just negative emotions that are contagious. Positivity is too.

Smile at people. Compliment them on good service. If someone is negative to you, let it go and don't take it out on the next stranger you see. All it takes sometimes is one compliment from someone you've never met who didn't have to say anything at all to turn your day around completely.

If I like someones hair colour, I tell them. If they have a cool shirt. I'll let them know. They might think I'm a weirdo, but does that really matter? It might cheer them up, too.

Everyone knows that they must be held responsible for their actions and the things they say. What they don't realise is that we are also responsible for all those missed opportunities. The things we don't do, and the things we don't say.

I'm having a particularly shitty day. Everything that can go wrong, has gone wrong and will continue to go wrong until I am free of this horrible, wretched, pathetic excuse for a day.

Nothing cheers me up more than an ice cold Pepsi and green nail polish. I have a Pepsi right here, so now I'm bringing on the green nail polish.

My own nails are naked today (I broke one yesterday and haven't filed them down to match yet), so I'm going to share some old swatches that I have floating around in my flickr. This is gonna be a long post, so it might take a bit to load up all the pics.

Don't ask me where to get any of these... I have no idea.

Enjoy.

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Wow! I love this!! I first spotted this colour thanks to Steph's Closet, and thanks to a lovely US friend who doesn't mind going to Icing on my behalf, I managed to get my grubby mitts on it.

I love the colour. It's everything I wanted China Glaze Flying Dragon to be. Flying Dragon is a bit more red toned and darker than Grape-A-Licious, and the glitter is bumpy. Flying Dragon also dries matte and needs a liberal dose of top coat to look any good. Otherwise it just looks like a chunky, lumpy mess.

Not the case with Grape-A-Licious. It's a much brighter, very glossy neon purple. It goes on smooth and the glitter isn't bumpy at all. This pic is before I put on my top coat.

My only complaint is that Icing brushes are seriously shitty. They are uneven, and a bit like a mop. But with a steady hand and a bit of practice you can work around it. It's well worth it for the colour.

Mel, this one is for you...

Wow. The Aussie boy band.

Confession time. About four years ago I bought two Indecent Obsession CD's from Amazon for one cent each.

I have no idea where they are now. In a box somewhere?

Nostalgia is sometimes very embarassing tragic. My sisters were big fans at the time (six & eight years older than me, late 80's) and not knowing any better, I just wanted to like what they did. I remember getting the cassette of the album that this song is from for Christmas or my birthday when I was five.

I bet I danced my little ass off to it to.

Ahhh I can't stop watching this clip now. It's just SO bad.

Considering that this band contains four straight guys (I know it's hard to believe, but it's true), this song comes off surprisingly homosexual.

Cmon... as if it was actually going to be anything different.

I took about a zillion pics of this, so click below for more green, and my fabulous new iPhone cover.

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